So tired.... I am not sleeping well and it is due to sweat. I can't figure out why the hell I am so hot and then freezing to death while sleeping. It is irritating me. Anyway, my bestest friend came to town with her three year old and ten month old twins. We got to hang for a little bit before the troops started their meltdowns, mine included. I did feel a little bit weird about answering questions about my kids sleeping and breaking out my homemade baby food. Guilty for some reason. I will have to contemplate my navel over that one. Going to sleep now, so tired and am hoping for a temperature free night!

Sunday....

I wish I could say today was a great day, but it really wasn't. My children are driving me crazy. I think that Lilly has been possessed by the not behaving devil, and James is being his normal not happy self. We did manage to make it to church today where I prayed and worshiped and asked that God cleanse me of negative and allow me to surround myself with what is great about my life. How lucky am I? I have healthy children, a WONDERFUL husband who has a job and a significant amount of smiles each day. Our friend, who has a dying brother just found out his dad has prostate cancer. What do I have to bitch about today? NOTHING!

Happy Valentine's Day

A rainy, yet sunshiny day. Weird, but looking forward to seeing a rainbow. Cooking, cooking and more cooking is the call of the day. Loving it. Making bread for Annie, a crumble cake for desert and pork loin for all of us to eat dinner before we head out to Bill Cosby, Live in Oakland. Jeff offered to take me to Chipotle, but I passed on that one. He is such a funny guy! To the absolutely no one out there that reads this, Happy Valentine's Day and love and blessings!

What a day...

Sitting by the fire, listening to Pandora Radio, and waiting for James Raz to wake up from a late nap. Life is pretty damn good. Except that Lilly just told me that she loved me so much except for the fact that I had a hair growing out of the mole on my neck. Um, well that's just lovely. I keep waiting for age to stop landing on my face, but I guess I am destined to age not so gracefully. I have tried, tried and tried to take care of these wrinkles, to no avail. Wisdom is waiting in the wings, right?

Going to see Bill Cosby tomorrow for Valentine's day. I am very excited. It was my Christmas present from Jeff. Should be fun, interesting, but fun. He reminds me of my dad. Consistently funny, somewhat clueless on purpose and smarter than he allows anyone to think he is.

Raining here. Beautiful as long as I am inside. Having a great afternoon.

Thankful

I wake up every morning and pray. I know, I do. I am thankful for my husband, my children, my family and even my dog. Tomorrow I plan on being extra thankful for my mom and dad. Tonight they brought home my daughter, with a new full size horse toy and energy that knew no bounds. She waxed philosophical on how much fun she has at Grandma and Opa's and how she can't wait to go back to see them. I think, often, how my life, at least as an adult over 35 has never been better. This is all because of my parents. My husband, bless him, has put up with my shit and loved me and given me beautiful children. My parents, however, continued to love me through all my nonsense and craziness and at times when I wasn't worth loving. They did. My dad saved me more times than I can count and he always looked at me with his wisdom and knew what I was doing and STILL loved me. My daugther's, and soon to be my son's, life is owed to my dad's love and my mother's support. I am lucky, blessed and honored. I hope that in my father's afterlife he is given a special place for being such a wonderful father. My mother already has a reservation next to her own mom.

Since I can't manage to keep up with blogging about my family, I am going to start keeping track of my new favorite hobby: cooking. I have become obsessed. So today, I Mandoo courstesy of citymama. Banana Pudding Pie, Homemade Hummus and a boule of country bread. This is all fun! I love to cook these days. It will be interesting to see how long it lasts.